Im Not Missing You - Stacie Orrico

Oh, Oh
I'm not missing you

Been through just about everything that I could go through
When it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen
When I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again
Cause of my curiousity
Now that it's over
What else could it be besides a cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

CHORUS
(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different
I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

It's a shame in a way cause I feel that I may not
ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face oh
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

Chorus x 2

No I can't be with you
Cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life
Unaware of what I missed
And the person I could be
Love's good when it's right
And when it's left in your memory
All the times I let you down
I guess love will be nice for someone else's life

(But) I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I got life to do
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone (I used to hate it)
Oh different, oh feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
(knockin' at my door)
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
(it's the best day of my life)
I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
I'm not missing
I'm not missing you

I'm not missing you
(oh baby)
I'm not missing you
I'm so over you
It ain't even a problem


yesterday
1. Going to Liu Yi's house + Cina
went to liuyis house with sok yesterday. took mrt from yew tee to ang mo kio then changed bus.
sok khoong arh! wear until so boyish! then im sure got people mistake us for ME a girl dating HER a boy when it's HER a GIRL. please lorh. we're not les. -.-

finally reached liuyi's house and we went down to the basement to see cinalucia. cina arh. SO VIOLENT. keeeeeeeep scratching and bithing sok and liuyi. (i ran away. HEH HEH) AIYOOOO. kittens nowadays arh.... oops =x anyway. ya she was being damn hyped up and violent and kept jumping on us. hurhur.

quotes: "She's one violent cat. And she has enormous ears. The whole time round she was jumping around like a jack-in-the-box and she accidentally whammed her head against the bottom of Liu Yi's drawer."

then wenqi came along and she was putting cina on her lap. then she got tickled by cina. wenqi VIBRATED like siao and started shaking her legs, repeated: "ahhhh very ticklish!" over and over again until cina finally decided to jump off her lap. haiyo. wenqi damn funny can!

2. Dressing Liu Yi
so after that we decided to go junction 8. went up to liuyi's bedroom and helped her get dressed. LIUYI HAS ALOT OF CLOTHES. O.O you people arh. DONT SEE SHE EVERYDAY DRESS TOMBOYISH TOMBOYISH ONE AND GET CHEATED BY HER ARH. she has TEN SKIRTS in her cupboard! even i everyday wear skirt one also dont have so many skirts as her. O.o liuyi weird!

oh by the way, she has more girlish clothes than guyish clothes and she doesnt like girlish clothes. HOHO THE IRONY. -.-

liuyi was in a dilemma about WHAT TO WEAR. so me and sok decided to help her choose. then we choose already she say too girlish. in the end she choose herself. -.- and we took HALF AN HOUR to help her decided what to wear. =x

3. I'm the odd one out.
sigh. for this segment i shall qoute from sok.

"Siew Ying is so girly. So so so so girly. Let me tell you why she's the odd one out.
-among Wen Qi, Liu Yi and I, she was the only one without specs
-She was the only one with long hair
-She was the only one carrying a tote
-She was the only one in a skirt and was trying to make Liu Yi wear one with her but failed miserably
-She was the only one in slip-ons
-she was the only one not wearing specs.

Wahaha. So girly! LOL. No offence, no offence."

T.T

4. going to junction 8
took bus from liuyi's house to ang mo kio mrt station. photowhored with wenqi and sok since they were sitting opposite me and liuyi. and they both looked like gays omg.

then took mrt to bishan. qoutes sok again: "Hm. We were on the MRT to Bishan. Wen Qi and Siew Ying, rather fortunately, found the pole thingys to hold on to. Poor Liu Yi and I didn't. Liu Yi hence assumed I was one and held on to me for stability. Then I mumbled a bit of crap and she shifted to Wen Qi. Then I kind of lost my balance and held on to Siew Ying. Then I don't know how, but somehow, we started talking about circuits and live and neutral wires. We were wondering where the earth wire went to and decided it was a two-pin plug. (:"

these type of people arh.study too much already. want to apply concept also apply at the wrong place at the wrong time. -.-

5. STUPID WENQI
we were walking out of the mrt station to J8 when wenqi and liuyi suddenly realise that me and sok look like a couple and i looked like im dating a guy shorter than me. -.- then ALL OF A SUDDEN, LEE WENQI ACKNOWLEDGED ME AS HER DAUGHTER. O.o

wenqi: "haiyo! you see! this is my GOOOOOOD son." -points to liuyi-

then

wenqi: -points to me- "YOU ARH. my daughter. SOOOOO DESPO. of ALLLLL thing you date a SHORTER guy."

me and sok: "WTH! "

liuyi: "teeeeeeheeeeee i got a despo sister! jie! why you so despo! you date a shorter guy!" -points to sok-

-.-"""""" oh man. i want to faint.

like excuse me? which part of the sentence: "WE ARE NOT LES." do you not understand? cause i'd be very happy to explain it to you.

sidetrack: my mum has very ridiculously asked me to put cucumber on my face as cucumber is supposed to CLEAN YOUR FACE. but excuse me? how can a cucumber clean you face? like it's a VEGETABLE. it doesnt even move. how can it clean your face?

6. dragging sok to take neoprints.
liuyi wanted to take neoprints when sok and i had absolutely no intentions of doing so. (at first, cause i gave in later.) like come on. let's face it. due to technology advancement you can always use photoshop to do stuff like neoprints with your taken photos. and it's soooo much cheaper than taking neoprints? but since wenqi and liuyi really wanted to go so i had give in to them and let them drag sok into the neoprints shop. hoho. hmm shall upload the picture of them dragging sok into the shop next time. not able to load pictures from the phone into the com now. =x

7. taking neoprints
fun but stupid procedure. DO NOT EVER TAKE NEOPRINTS WITH 3 FIRST-TIMERS. that was a very very big mistake that liuyi made yesterday cause me sok and wenqi were taking neoprints for the first time and we seriously didnt know what to do. everything was said in jap and only liuyi and i knew a little bit of jap. :/ and we werent even prepared when they started taking the photos! like the first photo was HORRENDOUS. GOD. SO HORRIBLE. but nvm lah. can train abs cause you'll look at it and start laughing like siao.

actually wanted to upload prints but then realised that they were very pixified. shall try to upload if i can next time.

8. cheat money.
err ya. cheat money! why? because the machine went to choose the spastic looking first picture which we wanted very much to discard. (but it turned out to be a blessing in disguise later!)

9. doodling the neoprints
imagine. liuyi finishes dodling all 5 neoprints while wenqi and sok were still on their first one. (i wasnt involved) that's the problem when you take neoprints with first-timers. WE DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO. they kept writing and erasing and writing. -.-

10. Looking for food.
wenqi was hungry after that and we we decided to help her find food. being a vegetarian, she couldnt eat any type of food and we had to help her find vegetarian food. we ended up wandering in minitoons instead. :/

11. chocolates.
was WANDERING then sok had a sudden craving for chocolates and we went down. oh man, the chocolate shop is such an INDULGE.

12. Going back
decided to go back to liuyi's house for lunch. went back to the MRT station and we were talking talking talking. so when the train came we just boarded. did the stupid circuit thing thing again and suddenly i had this feeling we were going the wrong direction cause the train was going underground.

qoutes:

siewying: "Are we taking the right train?"
Speakers: Braddell.
Us: Oops.

With that, we rushed off the train and ran to the other platform to board the train going in the other direction. Hohoho.After getting to Ang Mo Kio MRT, we walked to the bus stop and Liu Yi started her nonsense.

She was the...somethingman.
I was the...somethingman.
Siew Ying was the...girlishman (something along those lines).
Wen Qi was the...auntieman.

Walao. Very wrong please!Liuyi was blabbering some ahsweeish things saying she was a guy or something. SO RUBBISH. I was laughing like nuts. HAHAHAHA.

13. lunch at liuyi's
wenqi cooked her vegetarian maggie while me sok and liuyi struggled to finish one whole big pot of bee hoon her maid cooked. liuyi and i ate 3.5 plates (STILL SAY I NEVER EAT ALOT?!?!) and sok ate 4 plates. after finishing her fourth plate, she went back to the pot and stopped.

sok: "eeeeeee. no more already arh. i still hungry leh!"

-starts using the spoon to scrap the pot and lick the spoon-

liuyi's mom: "ehhhh you still hungry arh?"

me: "NOOO! i mean, er. I VERY FULLLLL."

rahhhhh. indigestion then you know arh.

14. training abs with a photo. O.o
can you believe neoprints can make you train your abs? ok sounds stupid but ya! after lunch we went back to liuyi's room and started "studying" and "analysing" the photos and we realised that the first photo that we took was damn funny! wenqi looked like some goldfish with she standing straight, arms and legs straight, LIPS STRAIGHT and her eyes like blur blur one. she looked like some guard! damn funny! then liuyi was sitting on the chair thing and she had this frightened/shocked/surprised O.O look on her face! haha! my god! damn funny lah! we couldnt stop laughing until like 20 minutes later. we started digressing and then we started looking at the photo again. and then-

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

MY GOD. ABS WERE DAMN PAIN PLEASE.

then we decided that the "dao mah" and the "back to school" picture look very nice. sok and liuyi can be models got teenage GUY CLOTHES. haha! damn zai3. (:

15. cinalucia again
i think cina's an american wild hunting cat. she pounces on people like pouncing on prey. and she keeps biting us. O.o

16. going home.

qoutes:
Liu Yi had to go to the dentist, so we had to go too. Her mum offered to send us out. So since she and Liu Yi's sister were taking the front, the 4 of us had to squeeze at the back. And I mean squeeze. Liu Yi went in, followed by Wen Qi and Siew Ying. Then I had no space. Poor Siew Ying moved forward so that I'd have space to go in and she took up less than 1/4 of the seat. ._.

It's ok, she's skinny. (:

No lah I not so mean. xD

SO MEAN! ):

17. on the MRT

aiyah. too lazy to type. qoute again.

Wen Qi, Siew Ying and I were on the MRT. We were bored, so we started talking. We began with a class gathering, then we digressed...and digressed...and digressed...and digressed...until we were talking about NCC Air, NCC Land or NCC Sea.

What the.

Oh, you won't want to know the contents of our conversation on who to invite for class gathering.

*Please note that the conversation was only for entertainment purposes. Content is not to be taken seriously.

18. LOT 1
went lot 1 cause i had to help my sis buy earstuts from there and since sok didnt want to go home so early, so we went LOT 1. saw clara and estella. (:

19. SOK AND I ARE NOT LES.
like wth! sok and i decide to go to the pasar malam to buy stuffs and she bought food. then everything she buy one, but all the stall owners all giver the stuff to ME. waliao! they all think that sok's a guy and im the girlfriend. so the boyfriend is buying for the girlfriend. then i kept telling them is SOK KHOONG BUY ONE. AHEM. but they still dont get it. -.-

waliao. do i look so desperate that I HAVE TO DATE A GUY SHORTER THAN ME???? NO RIGHT!?!?!?!?

mehs. faints.




today
i've been feeling a little down. not myself lately. i dont know why. seems like i dont seem to be that easily amused anymore. i just feel very empty.

got back maths and history. disaster. roar. although it's like the first time i pass IP 60% for history, it's still damn lan4 compared to the whole level, and i failed to get 65%.

how pathetic can i get.

then maths was horror. though it's the first time i got 80 for maths, but it's like the whole level did damn well for this time round cause the paper was damn easy and lots of people got 90 and above.

and if i hadnt got so many careless mistakes, i would have gotton at least 90.

urgh im soooo stupid. someone can just shoot me.

choral night's coming. shall update calendar next time.


Lily Allen Smile Lyrics

When you first left me
I was wanting more
But you were fucking that girl next door
What'cha do that for? (What'cha do that for?)

When you first left me
I didnt know what to say
I'd never been on my own that way
Just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you are feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
It makes me smile
Yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me
You say that you want me back (Want me back)
And I tell you it don't mean jack (It don't mean jack)
No it don't mean jack (No it don't mean jack)

I couldn't stop laughing
No I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health
I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found the light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry
It makes me smile
Yeah it makes me smile
At worst I feel bad for a while
But then I just smile
I go ahead and smile

At first when I see you cry (When I see you cry)
It makes me smile (It makes me smile)
Yeah it makes me smile (Yeah it makes me smile)
At worst I feel bad for a while (I feel bad for a while)
But then I just smile (But then I just smile)
I go ahead and smile (I go ahead and smile)

At first when I see you cry (When I see you cry)
It makes me smile (It makes me smile)
Yeah it makes me smile (Yeah it makes me smile)
At worst I feel bad for a while (I feel bad for a while)
But then I just smile (But then I just smile)
I go ahead and smile (I go ahead and smile)

who got the mp3? can send me? thanks! (:










what's the meaning of life when it's a tireless routine?

i cant believe i still cant let go.

S.H.E.
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